I sit here
lethargic
as time churns out nothing
nothing for me
nothing of worth
nothing to care about
just emptiness
as my passions
fade away
and my feelings
grow numb
the ache to create
the ache to love
replaced
by the ache of loneliness
and dulled by tiredness
if i am waiting
what am i waiting for?
what will become of me?
I stayed up to midnight last night reading John Green's 'Looking for Alaska.' I've read his 'An Abundance of Katherines' prior to this and liked it so I thought I might like to check out the books everyone seemed to be talking about online. I have The Fault in Our Stars yet to read [though I've heard it's a bit too 'cute' and slightly unrealistic.] I would love to read 100 books this year, but I'm not quite sure I'll reach that, since a lot of the books on my list are classics that might take me some time to digest. Or maybe, I'll just read more poetry.
'Looking for Alaska' really hit something for me. The books contains a lot of memorable quotes and Miles' obsession with last words had me deeply interested, but I do think John Green's books are a bit overhyped by tumblr etc. Still good books though. And I love John Green like I do with Jennifer Lawrence. Hmm... going on with Mile's and last words... Honestly, I've never been too interested in biographies/autobiographies myself, so I'm probably missing out. Mental Note: Read more biographies. I wonder if Julian Assange has an autobiography. I'd love to read that. (I have a hacker romance.)
I've currently borrowed 'I am the Messenger' by Markus Zusak and I must say it has one of the best and most entertaining introductions to a book I've read. I shall now proceed to peruse it in bed.
Pick out a song.
Turn up the volume.
Louder and louder.
Drown out your thoughts.
With nothing but the beat,
that flows through your head.
Again and again.
On repeat.
I signed up for Good Reads to keep track of my reading, which sadly due to the amount of homework, assignments and tests I have currently moves at slower than a snail's pace. I long so much inside as I look at my recommendations tab and see so many good books I would love to bury my head in.
I really should get through that list of well-known classics too.
I'm also extremely excited about their giveaway feature. You can sign up for giveaways of [sometimes signed copies of] books that have not yet been published and circulated around the general public. It's definitely a great opportunity. You could be reading the next big hit if you got lucky. The odds aren't ridiculous either, depending on how good the book looks, different amounts of people request it. Anything from a few hundreds to a few thousands. Well, I'm always up for free books, even if it's a horribly written necrophillic gothic romance story targeting the pitiful mass of teenage girls who think they are 'forever alone.' Hell, even if I got 50 Shades of Grey in the mail, I'd probably be jumping around in joy. Whatever grows my bookshelf...
Even if it's absolutely rubbish, I could always use it to start a bonfire in winter.
I'm not 100% sure what I listen to anymore, but I'm glad I've strayed away from Taylor Swift, the top hits and crappy pop songs with crappy lyrics. Also, Japanese songs and overly-annoying Vocaloid songs that I downloaded during my weeaboo phase. That was horrible.
I love the music video of this as well and the not particularly meaningful yet extremely catchy lyrics.
Well hear me out when you came into that bar
I dropped my glass and also I dropped my heart
Long legs, shinny hair, poudy mouth : I was expecting sex-lunacy, instead I stayed hungry.
You¡¦re just a broken toy-boy : girls¡¦ worst loved pet.
I should have guessed when I saw you the first time You were bad news coated with a great style
Sweat voice, tender eyes, cute laughter : I was exptecting love frenesy, instead I got nothing
I procrastinate homework by finding good music to do homework with, which means Youtube, which means checking my subscriptions and soon somehow I find myself 2 hours later watching a video of a bunny given a shower when I started from some obscure indie band.
Though I often do find some amazing music though. I'm not really picky about what I listen to, I just avoid most rap and pop songs.
I'm in love with Crystal Castles, really mesmerising electro there. I don't think I have really listened to much in the electronic genre apart from the occasional song from Daft Punk and those electronic Vocaloid songs.
Thank god, I've finally finished editing this theme. I'm actually pretty proud of myself for adding in codes and changing the colour scheme and layout slightly. It wasn't as hard as I thought though I did spend probably 2 hours last night working on it haha. I guess it wouldn't be too hard to code my own theme either, though I'm probably not patient enough.
Hmm, my blogging all started about two years ago on blogspot, but not long after, I discovered tumblr and moved there.
I remember I had an anime orientated blog during my horrendous weeaboo stage. [/slaps past self] Thank god I grew out of it and my K-pop obsessed stage too. Ha... haha...
Funnily enough, recently I got sick of it so I've just gone on hiatus there. The tumblr website changes are like facebooks, they're horrible. But it's not really that that makes me annoyed, tumblr is too follower orientated. I thought I could escape that by remaking, but no I'm once again sucked in. I want to blog for myself again, be able to write long text posts about nothing and ramble again.
So hello blogspot, nice to have you back~